Sunday, October 11, 2009

What's going on?

There's something going on here, Lord. Probably not just with me but I can only speak for me. Common thread seems to be seeking to know You.

For me, it started with leaving one place of worship after about 20 years, then leaving another after less than a year, being on the "backside of the desert" like Moses and experiencing You like never before. For me, it's been acquiring and reading books that organized religion would frown on. Books by Christians (?) and non-Christians (?) alike. Define Christian for me, Lord because back in the day, it was a derogatory term. Sorry, I digress. Books about Mother/Father God, Buddha, Jesus, Christ (are they one and the same?), Kabbalah, Gnosticism, The Lost Bible, even my essay about being angry with you Lord. And books about leaving the church. Gasp!

Anybody else been there? Books like Leaving Church by Barbara Brown Taylor, The Shack by William Young, Gospel of Inclusion by Bishop Carlton Pearson and So You Don't Want to go to Church Anymore by Wayne Jacobsen and Dave Coleman.

Are you noticing a central theme here? I know You notice the theme, Lord. You designed it especially for me. I'm writing this for the readers who are feeling "something", feeling disquieted about their religious experience, beginning to ask, like I did, "why am I here?", what is my purpose, Lord?" or "why did You let that happen to me, Lord?"

OK, people, how is that working for you?

Romans 8:35, 38-39.

1 comment:

  1. God loves you, not because of what you do but because of what He did. He loves you. Period!!! Stop trying to win His love and just live in it.